Life Update
Hi! This morning I woke up feeling inspired to write. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and wrote a long blog post from the heart, so today I figured I would do just that! When I first started blogging, I would share occasional life updates like this, but recently those have turned into instagram stories and tiktoks/reels (which I finally feel like I’m getting the hang of). Social media has changed so much since I started working in this space, when I first started I always said that I would never get into creating video content and yet, here I am doing it for a living 🤪 Anyway - here are a few things that have been going on!
ONE
We’re moving! Ben and I moved into our town house a little over three years ago with our son. We were just dating at the time and had no intentions in staying longer than a year, since our goal has always been to buy a house. It truly was the perfect space for us, and in the best spot between where Ben was working and our son was going to preschool. By the time our lease was set to renew, Ben and I had just welcomed Dimples (our puppy), got married, and saw the world start to shut down so we decided to stay put. The next year, the world was still a mess and we had a 3 month old baby, so we decided on one more year. Now it’s time for us to get out of here - there’s simply no more space for us! Unfortunately, the housing market is still a nightmare, and after many failed attempts to buy a house, we decided on just renting for now.
Our new home is quite a step up from our current place - the kids will have their own room, a large backyard to run around, and we’ll be in a better location locally. We move in just two weeks, so it’s time for us to start packing! We are all so excited for a fresh start at our new house, but I must admit I have already started crying a few tears over leaving the place we started a family… It’s a mixed bag of emotions.
TWO
I have been on a journey for better mental health and recently started going to therapy for my chronic PTSD. I have been talking openly about this on Instagram as a way to encourage others to reach out for help if they need it. After a decade of living in this survival mode, I all of a sudden felt the weight of it all with our ongoing family court battle finally coming to an end. We are seeing the light at the end of a very long tunnel, and my body simply fell apart after living in fight or flight for so many years. It has been very difficult for me to unpack the multiple traumatic events and relationships I’ve had over the years, and although I some days are better then others, I’m on my way to healing.
Something I didn’t expect when starting therapy was how it would effect the many relationships in my life. As I am working more on myself, it is positively impacting my gentle parenting journey with my kids and also allowing me to be more emotionally available for my relationships. Along with therapy, I have also been going on wellness retreats, meditating, and moving my body regularly which has also helped my process. I’m looking forward to continuing on this path of healing.
THREE
With everything that has happened this year, I have been reevaluating my life and what I want it to look like moving forward. For so long I wasn’t able to make any changes, and now I’m so excited to start dreaming of what I want our family’s life to look like in the future. I know that I’ve been holding on to many things that I need to let go of in order to make space for even better things. I am definitely in a season of transition, I know something good is coming and I am just patiently waiting for whatever it might be. I am exploring new creative hobbies, changing the focus of my blog, and coming up with new business ideas. I know it’s time for the next chapter!
That’s all. Thank you for always supporting this blog, my family, our dreams. You have been there with me for the most beautiful and challenging parts of my life. Recently I’ve just been feeling so thankful for this space and this life that I never could have imagined for myself. So just thank you for being here.